Weigh-In Wednesday - 195

195 is definetely not the number I was hoping to see yesterday, but I guess realistically I knew that's what was going to happen. C'est la vie, eh? I guess I'll aim for 193 for next Wednesday and hope that I can speed through the first 5-10lbs.

As odd as it sounds, I must say thank god for headaches. I was soo tired yesterday, working so long on Tuesday I had a headache when I got home that night, and it lasted all day through Wednesday. We had ended up sleeping through our alarms and got to work at 10:30 instead of 9, and then I ended up having to leave early (4:15 instead of 5) because they were doing something incredibly noisy in the building, and just the sound of a broom sweeping felt like somebody was using a cheese grater on my brain. So I didn't work too much yesterday, but I got what I needed done, and anything else I can do today. Though we're also going in late today. I'm up and could have gone in on time, but we probably won't leave until midnight again and working 13.5 hours is long enough, no need to aim for 15.

Just added it up and I was at about 2500ish calories yesterday. How do I expect to eat that much and lose weight? It's seriously impossible. So, from today on I'm aiming for under 2000, and I'll go lower next week. Between 1200 and 1500 is optimal, but obviously I seem to be incapable of just making the cut. I'm going to weigh myself everday this week, I find that it helps to keep me on track, and hopefully it won't drive me nuts if I don't see a loss everyday. If it really helps this week then I'll probably keep on doing it, whatever works right? So today was 194.8...which has to just be water weight since I ate 2500 calories yesterday heh...oh well.

Time to get ready for work. Not really looking forward to today.