Fresh Start Plan

I'm giving myself a new fresh start. I did well today so I'd like to say that I'm going to make this Day 1, but I'm not going to. I'm gonna keep doing well until Wednesday, so my fresh start can start on my Weigh In Day with a fresh weight. Hopefully a lower fresh weight, but I guess time will tell.
Since I'm not starting today, I'm just going to plan. I don't know what it is but I love planning. Weightloss anyways. I can't plan my food everyday, what I want changes by hour, but I love looking at a calendar and deciding how much I think I can realistically lose and get to my goal on time (and then looking at my calendar and seeing how much faster I could lose it if I really pushed myself, but I try to focus on the realistic one, promise!).

So.

First off, my weightloss goals. I know it's premature to set up this many since I have no idea if somethings going to set me off track, but if I want to get anywhere I need to have a goal to look forward to, instead of just saying that I'll get there whenever.

My Weightloss Goals
from my next weigh-in (April 18) until my birthday (December 2), which gives me 32ish weeks to get to my goal weight.

04/18/07 - 193 -
05/16/07 - 187 -
06/13/07 - 181 -
07/11/07 - 174 -
08/08/07 - 168 -
09/05/07 - 161 -
10/03/07 - 155 -
10/31/07 - 149 -
11/27/07 - 143 -
12/2/07 - maintain the 143 -

My Exercise Goals

I'm gonna be realistic. I know myself, I'm not gonna jump into exercise everyday of the week, but I figure if I bring down my calories and up my exercise every couple weeks it's way better than nothing at all right? So my plan.

04/18/07 to 05/02/07:
Go to the gym and work out with my trainer once a week.
Do cardio at home for 20 minutes twice a week.
Do 2 reps of 25 crunches twice a week.
Do 2 reps of 12 push-ups twice a week.

05/02/07 to 05/16/07:
Go to the gym and work out with my trainer once a week.
Go to the gym without my trainer once a week.
Do cardio at home for 30 minutes twice a week.
Do 3 reps of 30 crunches twice a week.
Do 3 reps of 15 push-ups twice a week.

05/16/07 to 05/30/07:
Go to the gym and work out with my trainer once a week.
Go to the gym without my trainer twice a week.
Do cardio at home for 30 minutes three times a week.
Do 3 reps of 30 crunches three times a week.
Do 3 reps of 15 push-ups three times a week.

I don't know how fast my body is going to build muscle with exercising, so I'm going to leave these as my goals for now and see where I'm at on May 30th and re-evaluate. Who knows, maybe by May 30th I'll be able to do 100 crunches instead of 30!

My Motivation

So other than the obvious motivations of:
-Feeling healthier
-Being able to walk up the stairs at work without getting winded
-Walking at a faster pace so my bf doesn't have to wait for me all the time
-Looking better
-Feeling better about my body image
-Lower cholesterol
-etc etc etc

My motivation:

Clothing! I hate clothing. I loathe it. I live in jeans and a hoody because I can't stand how I look in anything else, and I'm starting to hate how I look in that too. So I'm going to have two goal numbers.
First when I hit 165 I'm going to give myself $200 to go shopping and buy clothes. Not hoodies, maybe jeans, definetely no purses or shoes or accessories, but real clothing. Clothing that looks nice and fits well and shows off my hot curves. As fat as I felt when I was at 165 last time I had hot curves, I just needed to dress them right and I never did.
Second, when I hit my goal of 143 I'm going to give myself $500 to go clothes shopping again! I loved how my body looked when I weighed 143 and I don't understand why I didn't show it off, so I'm fucking well gonna this time! Plus if I do it according to my planned dates, what better birthday present than $500 to go clothes shopping?

In the meantime I'm not going to totally deprive myself of clothing, so if my clothing becomes way too big (ok this only counts for pants, cause I live in hoodies which are automatically baggy) I'm going to buy myself a new pair to replace, but other than that I'm probably going to avoid clothing like the devil, as I usually do. But! When I hit those two goals, look out malls here I come!